Sunday, December 25, 2005

im lost!!!
im scare!!!
im confused!!!
im afraid!!!
where are you?
i miss you!
allow no tears to flow out!

♥ return lies within hastey keys.
9:19 PM

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

hmm.. just reach home not long ago.. not tired.. really not.. in fact im full of energetic leix.. haha.. maybe i got drink cal ion water? haha. okie. im crazy.. haha.. joke joke la. hmmm..supposely having 2 sa today de. but after dat it became one. the first one had it for 2 hour plus. den missed the second one. some more not so confirm de. BUT nvm.. i can make it confirm de. i have my way. haha.

Road of Success Is Not Easy.. BUT I know, I'll Never Walk Alone.. All the way!

♥ return lies within hastey keys.
12:18 AM

Monday, December 19, 2005

hello! ya well.. just watch finish e vampire. missed many parts of it. you noe wad? from wad i think.... is really diff. im diff..! as compare to the xiaoting/corinne you hv noe 5days ago.
yup. 5days ago, was really sad. went for many interviews. but none of them really succeed just said wait for their calls. just as on wed (14dec) went for the interview for motorola. whole process was quite enuff for me to sleep a few hour nap. wad we did mostly was wait, wait and wait. after e motorola thingy was damn tired and depressed but we still decided to go to town and take a look. just as we are in the mrt to town, this guy called tia. u noe wad. this guy change my pt of view. and really brought out wad im suppose to be. mabbe i may not say wad im now is diff from wad 5days ago for wad im. i cud say initially im wad im. just dat i didnt really face it. i chosen not to face the reality. now after dat call im wad im suppose to be. i have to thx to dat man - steve.
normally when we are late for interview, dat's it. but this company actually call up to remind us the interview. so at dat time we have nth to do. no harm going. we might not noe we can be in. when we reached thr. we are so puzzled and some how surprize, enthu bout everything thr. we were thinking......
we are just 17 leix.
how interview is this?
wad are we supposed to do?
how much we'll get for salary?
u mean we have to wear those suit for work everyday?
are you sure?
those kind of puzzled questions la.. den we slowly get our turn to interview and we met ms jessie. before we get in thr this lady tell us some info bout ms jessie. during interview i was so scare of ms jessie. she is just 20! just 3yrs older den me and the way she tok to us is like some professional biz woman. im so presure, scare, nervous and i tot i wont be selected for it. from wad im surprize. we were ask for the orientation.
second day, we demo session. quite informative can noe more thing. but still very boring. but e second speaker came. tis man looking 30, wearing his suit. like any senior manager. stern but okay looking. he started to tok. started with e position structure, then on his experince..and so on..from wad i tink he can be a really great mentor. from the impression he gimme me he's someone dat is very cool, stable, can handle anything indeed he;s mr kit, our BGM.
slowly i get to met my uplines and manager. oh ya..my manager!! calvin..someone quite shocking oso. same age as me. my manger leix!!! same age as me? heard bout his footsteps.. can say is quite pei fu his spirit la. den come to steve.. hmmm..he's the only one which gimme a impression of someone on the right track. he look like wad he's having la.. mabbe im under him more often la. he can be a great fren. i look upon him as a bro la. which can teach me things dat i wanna learn. he just gimme de gan jue very brotherly. just like a bro which i longing for. not like my bro la. so xie mu calvin got such a good bro. haha. after few days of training. get to noe more ppl in thr. den slowly get into the situation. yups.
ohh ya.. there is this person i surly must mention one. my idol !!! haha. shhh...dun mention who is the person..haha. who knows anyone from VE might be reading my blog. or even my idol is reading now. saw my idol from the first day i went for interview. dunno wad caught my attn leix. just keep lookin. thinkin my idol is diff from others. and one thing i can confirm is....my idol is so talented!!! wahahaha..
alright..im crazy.. haha.
after joining this comp i can see the social life of this trade la. can be in contact with ur fren. leran new things. get prepare for the future. a new choice for my future life, as well as my courses. most importanly i get to face e reality of my world. i got the second me to be out. im no longer the one I AM!

♥ return lies within hastey keys.
1:31 AM

my 1st appt

Sunday, December 18, 2005

- third day of training
- bad mood
- cried for an hour
- my performance was damn lousy
- feeling really down
- i ruined my 1st appt
- tok to steve
- feeling alot better
- cheer myself up
- saw meihui in msn
- call her up
- had our chat
- i vomit wad i can to her
- forgotten bout my bad mood le
- that's the moment i move on with my life
- and i can do it
- M.E! i'm coming!

♥ return lies within hastey keys.
11:06 PM