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Friday, May 06, 2005

a + b = duan le de xuan, xing qing... (jay's concert songs)

lolx. long time nv blog liao. last week spent two days doing my skin. when it is done suddenly mood swing and dun feel like blogging for d whole week. now im back. heex. ehx..din noe tish skin ish jim's de. ps la.
today havin chem ppr. die liao la. din noe a thing. sure score below 20/65 de. sad liao la. dunno how tien will do to me. really disappoint him liao. he was so damn pissed off on wed. tish time he really angry wid me. din tok to me since dat day. really scare. wanted to msg him. but she dun wanna gimme his no. hais
doin maths e whole day. doin alegbra. do until my brain all wid abc...xyz liao. dunno how. suddenly feel lost wen i noe my chem ppr is going to flung. no confident in my physics liao. dunno how to explain to tien. why i tok about him again? dunno why. he make me feel s......
dun think i willbe coming in this whole week ba. tink i shld concentrate for e time being. i dun wan to regret at e end of e year. haven eat my dinner. think no appetite le ba. tish aftnoon day dream again. dreaming about... dunno why am i so imaginative. can think of such things. maybe tia is correct i may be a script director in future. maybe in dat way i can use all my strength ba.
owe alot of ppl things. alot alot which i dun even feel like thinking about it. wandering how will be my poly life be. or maybe im thinking much dun even think i can go into a poly ma. thinking of many many things about my future. thing like...how will be mon's ppr? my mid-year slip? my june holi? how hardworking i will be? e oral in july? O's in nov? my part time working life? poly courses? poly life? whr my frens? after poly? able to cont my U? real working life? my future partner? our future? our family? our child? their skl life? a brandnew life of torturing again and again. just cant stop thinking about it. maybe you will think dat im nuisance to think about all tish now. but im tish type. i will think n think n think and finally i will burst out and cry. really hate myself to have been in tish family. tish aint like a family at all. having him who always drunk weh he returns? would rather spent his money on cigars and beer since he was 20 years old. imagine how many million have him spent on tish nuisance rather than buying furnitures which are needed long ago, or outdated electric bills? or a her who dun really cares for you? do things e way she likes? w/o sparing a tot for her child? e selfishness of a self-centered sis? a family which dun have any bonding at all. nv really seat down to care for somebody or to communicate? wid tish type of family nowonder all of dem dun feel like coming home and would prefers to spent nights outside. just would dare to think more further. of not i dunno wad i would do to myself. sometimes really hopes i can grown up and quiclky get married and get out of tish house. dunno wad im thinking now. gonna explo liao. better go back to my maths.

y (a - b) = duandian / jingxuan

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